Perplexed.

Ever wondered why all of a sudden
Everything starts making no sense?
Neither did I, well before it started too often,
Before the heart got clogged, before it became intense

I sat back down there in the lonely corner
Filled with emotions that I couldn't recognise,
I tried to give it my all, to figure it out
Whilst a tiny little tear rolled up my eye

Suddenly I had my wide eyes looking
At the dark shadows in the mirror
The tiny tear had company, at least someone did,
And the silhouettes of emotions formed a whirlpool, before I could figure

There comes a phase when you know what's at stake
I certainly did, or did not, I wasn't aware
The thoughts bound by the chain engraved with sadness
All I could do, was sit back and stare

It takes a lot to figure it all out
Just by yourself in the pseudo universe you've created,
I wasn't sure which universe I dwelt in
One where I loved myself or where I was only hatred

I couldn't stop those hands of the clock
From running away, for I feared,
What if I am losing myself to the shadows,
Or was it the end, that silently crawled and neared.

- Rishi Kandra

Batch Of 2k8 - The Beginning?

The Class of 2012, Delhi College of engineering has been one that I grew to be very fond of. Wonderful seniors who touched my life in various aspects, be it Ajir Sir and MishraJi on a 3 am walk, to the constant bak bak of Ishita Ji :P

Here are a few dedications/thanks/best wishes for some of the people who influenced my life:

1. Ishita Kaur Kandra: Behena. Thank You for everything. Thank You for guiding me when i went wrong, kicking my ass back on the right path even if i just lasted there for 5 minutes. Even though we didn't meet much, knowing that you're just a call away was a blessing i can't thank enough. May God be with you as you start a new phase of your life. :)

2. Monam Mam and Mansi Mam: I've know you since i was in class 10. Both of you have been a true source of inspiration for me (and especially for Mumma :P). Your care and faith in me is touching. Thank You so much for everything. Wish you both all the Luck for your futures. :)

3. Ajir Sir: I saw you for the first time during the IEEE Membership recruitment drive. Although I had decided to join IEEE before the orientation, your speech that day made a huge difference. Thank you for the guidance and it was a great pleasure working with you for Troika. Legacy of BCH-406 will be forever. Hope you get the Visa soon enough! Best of luck and Keep in touch. :)

4. Mishraji a.k.a Snehashish Sir: Fun with learning. That's what knowing you has been like. Heavy BuckC, fulltoo Bhasadd, total Aish. That's how I'll describe the time spent with you. The last evening of First year in DCE (now DTU) with you and Maggu sir, with awesome. God Bless :)

5. Reddy Sir and Astha mam: You both have been the silent supporters. Always been there whenever i needed a helping hand. Whenever i needed a smile. Whenever i wanted to have fun. Thank you. You both will be dearly missed. Happy future :)

6. Maggu Sir: We did not have much of interaction apart from the last day, but you were one of my favorite seniors. Hard working, calm and with that composed smile, you've left an impact on all of your juniors. Thank you for being there and making it worthwhile. All the best. :)

Also, Thanks to Anshul Sir, Shubhanshu Sir, Saikat Sir, Pritha Mam and all the other fourth years for the wonderful memories. May God bless you all with all the happiness and success you guys deserve in life. Cheers and keep rocking the world!

(PS: I'm sorry if Ive forgotten any names... Its 3:20 am and im sleepy :P)

A new year, A new Beginning.

First of all, I wish all of my readers A very happy and prosperous new year. May God bless you all and shower lots of love, blessings and success you all. :)

2012 has always been a topic of great interest among almost everyone. Different people have different predictions. I mean I just typed "What w" in my google chrome address bar and it jumped to "What will happen in 2012". Google! ;)

Yet, keeping all the philosophies and prophecies aside, this is a new year in which we should all try, again, to help each other and grow. We should co-progress. Because without the "co" we cannot co-exist. And again, man is a social animal, isn't he?

Let's pledge that as 2012 ends, we all will have a list ready which contains all the things we've done for the society, 'cause only when we do our part for the society, we can expect others to do their part.

I have planned to follow my 4Ls. They are:

- Learn

- Laugh

- Love

- Live

As you might see, these 4Ls make the life worth Living. We learn to live, love to laugh, laugh to learn and live to love. All of these are interconnected. And important. In the absence of any of these, the life becomes music-less. Just give it a thought.

And, wishing you all the happiness for the new year.

Love,

Rishi

PS: I'm leaving for my hostel soon. So i wont be able to come online and post much. But dw, i'll try as hard as possible :)

Adieu O '11

"As I watch the day turn into night

I realise the time's might

Along we move, hand-in-hand

We choose our path, steady We Stand"

- Rishi Kandra

2011 has mostly been a year of transitions, fun and life changing decisions. Its been cruel, its been kind. Its been sad, its been happy. Its basically taught me how to handle various situations in life. Being happy when the times are tough, having trust on the people you love. "Keep Faith and Have Patience" - the saying which sums it all; almost.

Basically, I can subdivide the year into Headlines ( I was going to use highlights first, but then, what the heck :P ) :

->January: Make really great Friends In Manya and Mokshda >:D< 

->February: Procrastinate and kill time xD

->March: The Boards =D

->April: Competitive Exams =P

->May: Azaadi \=D//

->June: Aish B)

->July: College ki tayaari :O

->August: Debate over which college to go :-/

->September: Adjusting in the college :|

->October: Lots of home, An awesome fest and amazing friends :D

->November: Laziness and coziness of the Hostel Bed and Exams

->December: Home and Family trip and meeting Aditya -My best friend :)

      The most important thing that happened was College. Came July, and i was stuck between Choosing Shri Ram College of Commerce and Delhi College of Engineering (Presently DTU). I wasted plenty of time and mind, and to the amazement of certain people, I finally ended up doing engineering.

      

Some nights, i still wonder whether the decisions i made this year were right or wrong. And the time flies by. But then, what's done is done, right? That's the whole point of it! Looking back and realising what we should have done and what we did. And trust me, it is not easy to choose between What's right and what's easy. Most of the people are fickle-minded and dont know what to do with their lives and what to choose at what stage.

      One Advice: Always listen to what your heart says; but considering what the brain says. Decisions, are the same always. Never easy, never difficult. Its just we are sure about certain things that make the decision easy.. Proper lecture on decision making some other time :P

So moral of 2011 for me is:

      Accepting mistakes, moving on and adapting to the present situation. :)

ADIEU, Oh '11 !!

Annual? Nah, just lazy.

Hey Folks!!
I know its been sooooo long since i posted, but i just get lazy :P
to be truthful, I actually forgot about my blog :P
I saw it in the beginning of December, wanted to post so much.. but then I was like.. Abb agle saal hi post karenge.. :P

You know Initially when the year began, I planned to write AT LEAST Once in one month.. But excuses don't count now :)

Although i did have plenty of reasons :P

But aaj I saw some old friends' blogs... and i thot What the Hell?! I should write something too :D

And so this is my firsts post after 11 months, but THERE WILL BE MORE :)

Pakka promise that i'll be more regular ab se :)

love you all :)

Resolutions, anyone?

2010! What a year. Happiness and sadness. Joy and Sorrow. Life changing experiences. New Friends. Truly, what a year! But everything comes and goes and so has ended 2010. We might have loved the year, hated it, been okay with it or did not care about it. But now that it is over, we might want to learn some lessons from it.

2011! A new year, a new decade! We have a new opportunity knocking. Time we heed to it. So, we need to make some plans and some lists of do's and don't's. We each have a different mindset, hence our goals, aim and objectives will be different. Yet, there are certain things we need to do. More on that later.

What are 'Resolutions'? Something we should do? According to me, it is something that we should do for our betterment, for the improvement of the society, for the benefit of mankind. Every new year we make resolutions. Resolutions that we follow, resolutions that we don't follow and resolutions which we forget. Let's make some amends this year.

This year, actually, not only this year but every forthcoming year, let's pledge to do our bit for the society and the world. Something that improves the standards of living or something that makes someone's life worth living. Something for someone who has given us all we have today. Mother Earth. I want all of us to make some resolutions that we will follow, no matter what.

-> Keeping the environment clean: Various ways. Not littering and throwing the garbage in the bin for one.

-> Saving our precious water resources: For example, Closing the tap while brushing.

-> Reducing pollution to the maximum: Walking short distances, switching the vehicle off at a traffic signal.

-> Conserving Energy: Last but not the least, we all need to do all we can to conserve energy in every form. Switching off lights and fans, using solar cookers, not wasting electricity, and in many other ways.

So, if you are lost for resolutions, I hope this post helped you in some way or the other. I know I did not talk about any personal resolutions but, we gain from the society, so why not do something for it?

Here's wishing you a very happy and prosperous new year!

Ugh! Bad Traffic!

Yeah I know the topic is not that appealing but i had to write something on the blog, so why not about the irresponsible drivers and the corrupt traffic officers in Bhopal?

I mean I myself am not a saint. But who is? Its not that I have never flunked a Traffic Signal or I have never done over-speeding. But who is their to correct me when I don't follow the traffic rules?

Why are there Traffic guidelines when no one bothers to impose them?

There are many such questions that arise in our minds when we see the traffic on Bhopal roads these days. There are many problems related to "bad traffic". Some are:

1. Lack of traffic signals. And then people don't generally respect the presence of a traffic signal. Even when they do, because of the timers present, the go 3-5 seconds before the signal allows them. This is only one problem.

2. People drive in the wrong lane. Okay, fine. United States of America is our inspiration. But does that imply that Indian rules are balderdash? Wrong lane + speeding = Accident => Loss of human life. Aren't we intelligent enough to understand this Simple Equation?

3. Casual attitude of the traffic policemen stationed at various places. The don't bother when a person does not follow traffic rules. And even when they do, its just for personal gain. BRIBERY! And yeah we are the culprits. We think giving 100 to a policeman is better than giving 500 for our mistake. Why commit the mistake in the first place?

4. Underage drivers. These days the number of unauthorized drivers has increased drastically. They are too young to even understand the traffic rules and its seriousness, let alone following them.

The list can go on and on. But what is the use? We need to change our frame of mind. We need to develop an attitude to follow these rules. We need to understand that the government has laid down these rules for our benefit. We should become more responsible. Let's take an oath today on Gandhi Jayanti that we'll stick by the traffic rule and become more responsible drivers. Till when can we bear more damage to invaluable human resources?

Jai Hind!

Lost case...

Well, i had whole of june thinking about my blog, i really wanted to post but couldn't. Anyway, 15th june 2010 marked 2 years of my presence in bhopal. I mean i have better things to write about, later maybe...

Take care...

Review of music of I hate luv storys

Hey guys, this is my first music review, don't mind if it sounds a bit naive...

Well, the music is nicely done by the famous music directors Vishal n Shekhar. The music is refreshing to hear. The title track "IHLS" is a good one. The composition is quite good, the voice modulations by vishal are quite pleasant. The song will be on the lips of every youngster in a few weeks. The other song "Bahara", sung by shreya ghoshal is another wonderful track. The song suits shreya's voice well. "Bin tere" is quite different but well done by shafqat amanat Ali and sunidhi chauhan. The song "sadka hua" is also another amazing track. Suraj jagan is able to keep up to the high pitch of the song well enough. Mahalaxmi iyer also plays her part well in the song. Last but not the least "jab mila tu" is one of my favorite from the album. Starts with a great tune, vishal sings the track in an awesome manner. Overall the Vishal-Sherkhar pair has done an amazing job with the music of IHLS. My rating is 4.5/5. Enjoy the music! :) :)

The Moon

- Rishi Angad Singh Kandra

I never remember the moon so bright,

Creeping through my window, the moonlight,

Yes it made me think of you,

The beautiful, the very stunning you!

How I wish we'd be together,

Till the end of time, like forevr,

Walking on the grass, in the morning dew,

Barefooted I continue, thinking of you..

The scene changes, you're with me,

We're sitting together, under the Banyan tree,

You look so pretty my darling,

So beautiful, my darling!

Hand in hand, we sit there,

Such peace and happiness, I had found nowhere,

You rest your head on my shoulder,

And I place my arm around your shoulder.

And now, we are in a blissful garden,

It's full of beautiful flowers, is the garden,

Yet in this heaven, none is prettier than you,

I look at you, you smile and I keep looking at you..

I look at you, you at me, our eyes meet,

And my heart skips a beat,

A smile spreads across my face,

You and I are alone in this heavenly place..

Slow music in the background gives me,

A chance to dance with you honey,

We rock back and forth, in sync

With the music, and my eyes forget to blink..

I keep adoring you all the time,

We take two glasses, and I pour the wine,

And then we raise a toast to you and me,

How I wish things could be..

Yes, you're my life, you keep me alive,

My love and I will strive,

To make you happy, for your smile,

And I realise, I'd been in my thoughts for quite a while...

Please comment. :)

Ugh!

Ugh! You know what?
Today is one of the most messed up days of me life. I kinda had a big fight with my bestest buddy. And that too on the birthday of my other bestest friend(who has been out of touch for what? Around a year?). So I'm completely lonely. Listening to the songs on my cell phone. Why i am doin that? when i have my pc?

Ugh! Limit!
I've gone mad. I don't know what all wrong things I do, but the thing is shit happens!! I guess life had to turn out this way. It was just waiting for me to be loneliest! Why don't people understand me? Am I that immature? Am I that stupid? Am I that unlucky? I really want to know your opinion guys. Why am I say this when I knw not even 1 in 100 will read this piece of crap?

UGH!!

Well-come

See i am such a damn busy person, that i didn't update my blog in half-a-year. :P

As my last post said...no reads it anyway.

Well, as you have come over, read my older posts,.. they are better..

And

Take care...

Life on earth

I know that the topic name is weird....but i culdnt think of nething els...the life is good but yeah life without problems is not possible...or is it?

Anyways i dunno what to write...m damn confused....i thot that this year i would atleast post once a month on my bloggie...but i missed it in feb and due to sum1..i missed it in april...but no probs...from now on i'll publish it every month...waise even if i publish it every month..no damn person visits this blog to see whether there has been a new post or not...

Take My Hand

The Life's so broken down,
Everyone everything, on me, does frown
Life's become an inferno,
What did I do to make destiny my foe?

Take my hand, take it now;
I never want you to leave it
I'm so alone, like i was never,
Feel like a brainless git.

I need someone, someone close enought to me,
To take my hand, to never leave me
Why do I feel like everything's going wrong?
Why do I feel like here is where i don't belong?

Take my hand, take my hand,
Stop me from leaving somehow
Take my hand, take my hand
It's time, you should do it now.

-x-x-x-x-x-

Invincible pain

This is one of the another poems i wrote....
i consider it to be my best one...u comment and temme....

its like this...

All the happy memories go down the drain
Thinking about the invincible pain
Is it necessary to be told,
The pain increases a hundred fold

The pain begins with the day
never ending if it will
Troubles come, making me less happy,
All the pain seems going uphill

The pain lessens not
Even after a glass of gin
In the battle against pain
Doesn't matter even if u win

It doesn't physically hurt these days
It has many means and ways
All the same is being thought
If a lost battle is being fought.

Life is boring now
Wondering why and how
Will this pain ever end
Or will it become my friend

Ignorance kills, lemme die
Or shall we allow the pain to try
Let the invincible pain bend
Or let life come to an end.

-x-x-x-x-x-

An Unusual day

today i woke up at the peak of my fever....was very irritating....got up had brkfst n medicine and got ready....went to a cyber....after 1 hr or so we went to a resturant to have fud.....there the following happened

waiter: what will u like to have
me: chicken sweet corn soup
waiter: veg or non-veg...?

and we were laughing our stomachs out.....

******

in the eve....
we went to cafe coffee day...(thas me n my sis)
we askd for the bill
it said :
Rs. 158
since its within ABHM compound they give spcl. discount to army folk....
i askd for the discount and did the formalities....
the new bill said:
Rs. 175
and again we were laughing like hell....
then he came and said...."srry we forgot to add the last thing u orderd...srry"
then we got to knw wy discount increasd our bill

*******

At night arnd 11 45
i switched off all the lights and removed the curtain.....it was a beautiful view outside...trees all arnd....a rare sight in delhi....and then i saw it....lightening....and once it began it dint stp only....i kept looking at it all the time with its different patterns and different intesities....and by the time i fet sleepy....it was 1 37 am.....stil remember the patterns.....lovely they were.....

Dunno....

Hey guys i dunno wy m writing this post but i jst knw i wrote it.....

i nevr felt so guilty before
like i m the biggest bore
all i deserve is to die....
not sit and cry....

how cud this happen to me...
Why m i feeling so weak..?
I need u i need u clover
I want ur blessing to shower

Why did ya go so far
Di, and left me ajar
I miss all ur sisterly love
Where r u my dear dove

Come back...come back this instance
Didi, i cant bear this loooong distance
Help me get out of troubles
And make them burst like bubbles

-x-x-x-

hey i never intend to write this poem...it just came of...and yeah m no poet....poetry is just my way of expressing my feelings when they cant be controlled....

HUMARE PYAARE SANJAY SIR - 3

So ready to die once more????

here it goes....

13. To draw audience attraction(attention)....

14. You remember?? Dont make the confuse...

15. Clear anybody

16. properly meaning of the question

17. thank u for incoming

18. Number A column!!

For "You".....

If u ever read this.....then u'll get to know how much i loved u.....in fact i still do.....i know by the time u may read this i'll be gone.....yet i wanted ya to know that i was really hurt.....u said it was a joke.....but i never thought u would say so.....i was consoled that some day u may understand....but i dunno y i fell in love......in love with u.....y???
So what is left to say......i said everything.....its upto u.....whenever u read this.....may b u'll understand...... ............ ........... ............ ............ ........... ............ ............ ........... ............

My Love

My love is like an ocean,
It goes down as deep
My love is like a roses
Whose beauty you want to keep

My love is like a river
That will never end
My love is like a dove
With a beautiful message to send

My love is like a song
that goes on on forever
my love is like a prisoner
It's to you that i surrender

I love you s deeply,
i love you so much,
i love the sound of your voice
And the way that we touch

I love your warm smile
And you kind,thoughtful way,
The joy that you bring
to my life every day.

I love you today
As i have from the start,
And I'll love you forever
with all of my heart